Thursday, December 31, 2009

Hey ya'll. I feel like sharing something with everyone

I’m 21 years old and I’m as in love with the Jonas Brothers as I was when I was 16 and first heard their music. I remember that day too and it always make me smile. It was in 2006. My sister who was 13 at the time called me into the living room. She said, “Hey Steph, come listen to this song!” and I asked who it was. She said it was some band of brothers and I was like “I don’t care!” and she said “But it’s a song from The Little Mermaid.” Now… for those of you who don’t know, The Little Mermaid is, to this day, my favorite movie ever. If someone sings a song from it they better sing it right or else I want nothing to do with them. So I was like “fine”. She turned the volume up and I see these three dark haired guys at this local pool singing Poor Unfortunate Souls with a pop/rock feel to it. My first thought was “Hey… he’s cute” my second thought was “They’re really good!”.



The next thing I heard was Kids of the Future which was pretty cool. Their self-titled album came out the following summer with Hold On and SOS coming out as singles/music videos in the spring/early summer. My sister got the CD for her birthday and immediately we listened to it and then we listened to it and listened and listened non-stop. We discovered Hello Beautiful to be our favorite song from the album. It made me believe in love and that guys really could be... beautiful.



Que my senior year of high school. SOS was a big song but no one really knew that I liked them so no big deal. When they went on the Miley Cyrus/Hannah Montana Best of Both Worlds Tour, I wanted to go so badly. My Mom’s work gets free tickets to the arena that they were going to be at so my sister and I begged for her to grab them. We went and actually saw them in concert for the first time. It was amazing. Year 3000 was so much fun and just…. *gush*. When I went back to school I brought this Miley/Hannah poster for this guy in my class who thought she was “pretty” haha I didn’t buy the poster for him. My Mom went to buy us posters and stuff while we watched them perform and she thought she grabbed a Jonas poster but it wasn’t until we got home and I opened it that we realized it was Miley. Needless to say I was disappointed. This kid in my class who I used to be friends with was like “Did you go to that concert?” in a disgusted tone because if it’s not something he likes it’s disgusting to him because he is one of the most judgmental people ever because at the time he was insecure about being gay. And I said, “Yeah… but not for Miley” and he scoffed and goes “So you went for the Jonas Brothers?” and the girls he was friends with laughed and that’s when I knew that at my age it was not “socially acceptable” to like the Jonas Brothers. I didn’t have to hide it much more at school since I was going to be graduating. But that summer…



I got every teen magazine possible with their faces on the cover or with pull out posters in the middle. Almost every available inch of wall space in my room was covered by a Jonas Brother or even just a Jonas family member. My parents were a little taken a back at first because, come on, I was 18. They thought I would have gone through a phase like that. Sure, growing up I loved the Backstreet Boys but I wasn’t in love with them like I am with the Jonas Brothers. I didn’t care to know everything about BSB like their birthdays or their families. There’s just something about the Jonas’ that draws me to them. The entire family, not just Kevin, Joe, and Nick.



Here I am… almost five years later and I’m as in love with them, if not more, as I was when I was 16. Their music never fails to make me smile or sing along or tap my foot. I’ve been lucky enough to see them in concert three times. Hopefully I’ll be lucky enough to meet them someday, as well as Frankie and their parents and Dani. But… even at 21… soon to be a college senior… I’m not ashamed anymore. Most of my friends at first are like “seriously” but then they get over because they don’t care. Because they love me. Not my music taste. I have a JB poster hanging next to my bed in my dorm. I have a poster of Joe from the second Rolling Stone issue on the cork board of my desk. I wear my Jonas shirts around the dorm. I have CR and CR2 in my DVD bin. If someone has a problem with the fact that I love the Jonas Brothers and uses that as the deciding factor of whether or not they want to be my friend than screw ‘em. I don’t need them.



The Jonas Brothers are always going to be a part of my life no matter my age. They were the first band I actually, truly, deeply loved and love every bit of. I love Nick’s side project. I’m extremely excited for Joe’s solo album. I’m anticipating Kevin and Dani’s future children. I just have so much respect for them and how they don’t care about the haters. Joe said, “I know we’ve lost fans but it’s not about quantity, it’s about quality. The best fans stayed with us” and I am proud to say that I’m one of those fans and always will be, no matter what society says is right or wrong.

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

So hurt

How freaking messed up is this?

I mean, really? 

I’m so upset right now, and i don’t even know whom i’m speaking to, but really, would you upset if your father wants nothing to do with you?

And you didn’t do a single thing?

Just be alive, and try to be his pride and joy.



My father and mother got divorce over two years ago, and i tried to keep in contact with my father, but he flat out told me he disowned me, and he never, ever wanted to talk to me again. But now, i just want to speak with him, because he is still my father. I have moved on from that point in my life, but i just want him to know, i still acknowledge him, because when i have kids some day, i want them to know their grandfather. I hate this, and it just bugs the crap out of me.



I’m not trying to be rude to him or anything, it just really hurts that he doesn’t want to do anything with me. I really don’t understand it. It kinda sucks, because im trying to make him apart of my life, even if were just talking. I have a step-dad, who is just amazing to me, and my family. I am very grateful and love him very much. But, at the same time, my step-dad and my dad - they are apart of my life. One is actively in it, while the other isn’t.



I’m giving him world of chances for him to speak with me, before i really just cut him off, when he would need me. I really am truly, and completely totally hurt. All i have been listening to is Demi Lovato - World of chances. It’s killing me, but the song helps. I wasn’t the only one that went through this, and this song sets me at peace.



Whoever is reading this, just thank you. I would love some type of feedback.



Please and thank you.

Friday, December 4, 2009

Bieberstory prt1

i grinned as i looked out my car window eagerly, i was on my way to a meet and greet with justin bieber see? and i couldnt wait, i didnt sleep last night and i wasnt going to.. i spent most of the night picking my outfit out and deciding what to wear, in the end i went with a small tank top and a skirt, nothing to slutty because well.. i’m not that kind of person. “Jessica calm down” i heard my mom call from the front seat how could i ? i was going to meet JUSTIN BIEBER, the one person i had been idolizing for months, and finally after winning a meet and great here i was .. ready.. and not even scared.. much? 



I closed my eyes for what only seemed to be 10 seconds and the car had stopped. i looked out the window and gasped at the Justin bieber sign about the building. this was it. Although i hadnt expected to feel this nervous as i got there, “jess come on .. isnt this what you’ve been going on about for weeks” my mom called to me as i began to think of things to say “coming” i grinned and got out the car. i hadnt expected to feel this nervous, i had practiced.. right ?. 



Giving up my thoughts i fixed my outfit and walked into the building, the wall where purple .. Justin bieber’s favorite color of course.. everyone knew that.. and there in the Que was Justin greeting his fans looking as handsome as he ever did, my heart raced this was it.. i was going to meet him, the room began to span and ears began to buzz i was fainting? no .. this couldn’t be happening not now.. not when i was so close, i looked over to my idol and saw him gazing at me concerned, did i really look that bad? no? he was coming over here oh my gosh i thought he was coming to see if i was OK.. that was it .. my eyes shut and head hit the floor i had fainted.

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Paramore and The Beatles are currently dueling for dominance in my brain

I’ll be humming the chorus from Revolution  only to get interrupted by Fences. That’t just not fair.

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